Villain of the Piece
Part 3 Waiting Games
- Chapter 41 -
Chapter 41: The
Heat of the Moment 31st October to When he spoke of it afterwards Severus said that it was
Hallowe’en that caused the world to crash around his ears. Not that he spoke of it afterwards – not for
days, except to Dumbledore. And not in
depth, except – again – to Dumbledore. The event itself took place on Hallowe’en. It was preceded by a warehouse fire in “Thank you for alerting me but personally I’m not stopping
long tonight” he said confidentially to Sturgis. “This is another trick. A ploy, like Invergarry, three nights ago. I’ve brought Elphias and Dedalus to help you
out, but I doubt you’ll find the culprit.
The perpetrator of this piece of trickery is long gone.” As he spoke another Auror had just Apparated beside them
and was trying to say something. “You’re
dead right!” he cut in. “This was to
draw us off. The Hog’s Head’s just gone
up! And the house next door to it is
well alight! It looks as though they
wanted to get you well away from Dumbledore didn’t hesitate – he Disapparated at once,
desperate to ensure the safety of someone very dear to him. But suspecting another ruse he sent Fawkes on
an errand. In the heat of the moment it seemed
the best he could do. A short time before that moment, soon after the time that
the Ministry had first began to worry about the And when the black-clad wizard had blasted through the outer
door, and breached many more lines of carefully laid defence, he found upstairs
in the nursery the witch and the baby.
And so too the witch died, refusing his request to stand aside, dying
instead and falling in a manner that she had no doubt planned if the worst
should happen – a direction that would not harm her child. And there he was. The baby.
Defenceless. At last. “Three times they thwarted me” Voldemort told the baby. “Three times they held me back. Frustrated my plans. But they were not defending you then; not
hindered by encumbrances such as you. And
they were lucky too, for fate has now made plain to all that I am the greater
wizard! What a pity you’ll not have a
chance to see my mastery. But you must
die, Harry Potter, that I might live.
Avada Kedavra!” * It was more than a day later that Severus came fully to his
senses about the events in Godric’s Hollow.
Together with Filius and The Hallowe’en Feast had drawn to a close and Dumbledore
had left the Hall. At some time during the
following day he had told Severus what had happened. “It was late but I
wasn’t tired. I went to my office. Sometime after eleven Sturgis called through
the Floo network. He asked if I would come
to “Hagrid had seen the
Dark Mark long before he landed, and of course he found the wreckage of the
house. Fawkes was there too, and Hagrid
sent him back with the news of Harry’s survival and the request for further
orders. “And I knew then that
something truly miraculous had happened – Voldemort’s evil will had not
prevailed. He had been there in person –
of that Hagrid was convinced! And I was
sure of it too, because of what had taken place there. Hagrid said there was no sign of Voldemort now
– no sign of a body – living or dead.
Voldemort had gone. I wondered
about that, but because Harry was alive and well I was also sure that Hagrid
was right about that. Voldemort had gone
– we could feel that he had gone! The
whole magical community could sense it. “I was certain then
that the fires had been diversions. I
sent word to Hagrid to keep Harry safe for a day and to bring him to me, at his
aunt’s address, near to “Severus?” Someone was shaking him by the arm. It was Aurora Sinistra, looking small and anxious,
and yet dependable. “How did you get here?” Severus asked. “Never mind such silly things” she said, almost stamping
her foot with impatience at him. “You
weren’t at dinner. Are you orright? Are you orright, Severus?” “Yes … No … I don’t actually know … What day is it?” “Is Monday.” “Monday–?” “Calm yourself. Is “Then we have lessons in – six hours time. Less!” “Yes. Well, you have”
she said. “Mine don’t start for another
half a day. Will you be celebrating
tonight?” “Celebrating?” “The downfall of He-Who-Must-Not-be-Named. Everyone is starting to say he’s gone for ever.” “Do you believe that, “Did he tell you that?” “Yes … I think so … It’s all a bit of a blur.” “I think you’d better get some sleep, Severus. “The kids ’ll be awful tomorrow with everyone
in this party mood. Moods are
infectious.” He knew that was likely to be true so he took her advice,
pulled himself together and got back to the dungeons for a few hours sleep. He took a mouthful of Draught of Peace and went through the
following day in a sort of haze. Some of
the seventh-years even thought he looked drunk.
But he was not. The idea of blitzing
his senses into numbness had occurred to him but he dare not risk it with three
practical sessions to oversee. Only when
he shut his door on the last of the fifth-years at “Are you coming to dinner, Professor?” He jumped awake, then gazed up at her drunkenly. “Dinner? … Yes … No … I don’t know. Have we had this conversation before?” “No. We’ve not
spoken since … since You-Know-Who died.” “ ‘Died’ is not a safe assumption to make.” “Then do we have to continue with the precautions?” “Yes, Irma” he said firmly, hauling himself to his feet. “It wouldn’t be wise to undermine what we’ve
achieved.” “Very well” she replied.
“Then if you are coming to dinner I think you should change those
robes. Those smell of hellebore.” Severus was late for dinner. Dumbledore looked at him carefully, noting
the puffy face, the circles under the eyes, and the badly shaved chin. “Shall we have a chat later?” he asked kindly. “There’s a party in the staff room, but we
could skip it.” “Could we make the chat another night, Headmaster” Severus
said. “I didn’t sleep well last night –
I just need to catch up on rest.” But after dinner Severus didn’t go to the dungeons; he went
for a walk. He prowled around the
castle, thinking; not about the sadness of Godric’s Hollow – he had locked that
away in a room in his mind that he did not intend to open. No, he had other things to mull over – things
less painful and more urgent… Many of the staff and most of the students were speaking of
Voldemort as either dead or vanquished.
And they spoke of baby Harry as The Boy Who Lived, hinting that he must
have special powers. Even Dumbledore,
the person most sceptical of Voldemort’s demise, spoke of Harry as being a
marvel. And there lies the problem, Severus thought bitterly. There lies the problem – if the Dark Lord is truly
finished, my Death Eater role is meaningless.
And my special agent role is over.
It leaves me just a teacher. But if the Dark Lord comes back – do I want that? It would re-establish my roles. It would cause war again – war between this
boy and the Dark Side. Unless this boy
joins the Dark Side. Might this boy have special powers? Might he grow up to be a wizard greater than
Dumbledore? Greater than the Dark Lord? In ten years time I’ll be forced to teach him. Unless I leave. But if I leave where will I go? I’ve burned my boats with Healership. It’s fairly public knowledge – amongst those
that matter – that I have had some ‘involvement’ with the Death Eaters. I carry the Dark Lord’s brand. I cannot claim credit for vanquishing ‘You-Know-Who’. So a good Ministry placement isn’t
likely. A good anything isn’t likely in A job abroad then – Healing or teaching? But He’s Lily’s son too, of course. That actually doesn’t make it any easier. Severus had reached the seventh floor. He ground to a halt by a tapestry of a wizard
trying to teach trolls to dance. He
looked at it without seeing it, and then walked on, making his way gradually
down again. Caught in the light of his wand, his reflection in the
fourth floor mirror made him jump. He
studied it for a while – the pale, drawn face, the lank hair – then he wandered
on, not stopping until he reached the statue of Gunhilda of Gorsemoor on the
floor below. Peeves had found a stick of
chalk and was drawing spectacles on her, making rings round and round the eyes
– liking the squeaky sound it made. “Caldera!” Severus bellowed, turning his lit wand on the
poltergeist. Peeves screamed and shot away, tumbling over and over in a
plume of hot air. “That’s all he is, you know” Dumbledore said softly, “Hot
air. Changed your mind about the
sleeping draught, Severus?” “Yes, Headmaster.” “Prefer to walk instead?
So do I. Accio chalk.” The stick of chalk flew to his hand and after that he said
nothing for ages, letting Severus walk beside him, as they wound their way down
and up and down again, taking in the hospital wing, the trophy room, and the library. “Was it instant?” Severus asked finally. Dumbledore gave him a questioning look and he
added “Lily – was it instant?” “Yes” Dumbledore said.
“Hagrid told me there wasn’t a mark on her … Speaking of marks – how is
yours?” “Very faint now.
Still there, but very faint. I
suppose it will never vanish entirely.” “Perhaps … perhaps not.” “Why did you…” Severus
stopped, not knowing how to put the question, but Dumbledore guessed or knew
what he wanted to ask. “Why did I send Hagrid instead of you?” “Yes.” “Because to send you would have marked you as my agent” the
Headmaster pointed out. “And you are
supposed to be just a teacher. I could
not send a member of my staff into a nest of Death Eaters, armed with
instructions to do battle with them.” “Yes, you’re right, Headmaster. I see that now. It’s just that Hagrid – I–” “You question his competence” Dumbledore sighed. “But he is loyal, immensely strong, and very
good at keeping people alive. What he
might lack in finesse he makes up for in hardiness, and sheer practicality.” Severus nodded mutely, knowing it was true. Hagrid could camp out on a bare mountainside if
need be, for a month or more, and take no hurt, nor heed of discomfort. And he could nurture anything, from a mouse
to a tiger. “What went wrong?” he murmured
at last. “Potter said he’d done as you asked. What then went wrong?” “I cannot tell you” Dumbledore said sadly. “You will learn something of it soon
enough. I’m surprised the press aren’t
onto it already. All I can say is that I
will regret this to the day I die.” “So will I, Headmaster” Severus whispered. “If I could re-run time, and not hear the
prophesy – not give it to the Dark Lord…
If only! But time cannot be
re-run. Not on that scale. I, too, will regret my part in this. Until the day I die.” “But you hated James.” “But I loved his wife.”
He glanced at Dumbledore, feeling startled by what had just slipped out
– it was an admission he had never meant to make. “Please” he added, looking around fearfully,
“Never tell anyone I said that.” “It is no crime to love.” “It is a weakness…!” The following day the Daily Prophet carried a story about a
multiple murder of Muggles and the arrest of Sirius Black. At breakfast Severus glanced along the table to
Dumbledore but resisted the impulse to say ‘I told you so’. But he did resolve to owl Honor, deciding
angrily that there was no longer any need to obey the old man about that. There was no reply from Honor. Days slipped by, Saturday’s Quidditch match
came and went, and still her owl did not arrive. Severus barely registered that his House won
their match against Gryffindor, and Minerva couldn’t understand it. “I’m beginning to think he really is ill” she said to
Dumbledore. “I thought I’d never hear
the end of that Quidditch victory from Severus.
What do you think, Headmaster?” “That we should leave him alone and give him some privacy”
Dumbledore said mysteriously. |
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